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Monday, September 12th, 2005
7:02 pm	I just wanna get away from me I'm feeling a bit isolated tonight. I've had one of the most stressful days in a long time and it hasn't gotten much better as the day went on. I just have way too much on my plate what with the moving, work, school, having to take care of my friends, worrying to death about what's coming next I can't see more than two days into the future and it scares me. Plus I think that I might have scared away someone and that wasn't my intention at all. I kinda need to talk to someone about all this but nobody is around. My parents? Are out. I don't wanna talk to them about this at all. I really wanted to talk to Tammy but I also don't want to bother her with all my stupid shit, but God I miss her so much. I haven't heard from her in ages... Maybe I'll call her later if she isn't online. Right now I just want to run away from everything. Go somewhere far away but Hell I couldn't make it past the bus stop in town and even if I did I'd have nowhere to go to, no place to stay. But I want to run, I want to run so badly... Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Metallica- The Unnamed Feeling (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
9:15 pm	I feel like I have any icy cold knife in my chest right now It's amazing how fast you can go from being self pitying to deathly worried in .5 seconds... I don't know why I'm so scared I just have a bad feeling right now Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
9:36 pm	Zzzzz.... I am so tired today. We had a huge estate sale all day from 9 to 5 and Teresa and I had our own little table selling some worthless shit. We figured it was best if she slept over on Friday night cause she was helping us anyways so she did and of course we stayed up waaaaay too late and needed to get up really fuckin early the next morning. I refused to get out of bed cause I'm not a morning person AT ALL. I need tea or coffee, a shower and a good half hour to drag my ass out of bed. I was denied all three so I was a pissy little bitch for half the morning till I got some caffine in my system. Brenna stopped by on her way to work and she was one of our only customers (how depressing. Nothing personal, love ya Bren, but still...) so yea that was pretty bleaugh until I sold some chiar for $15 and that was pretty cool... I did get the final volume of Pretear from Netflix which rocked and also Grey Gradens which really proved to me that, if I thought my family was weird I was way off. These people were outta their tree... Anyways.. That was my day Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Dream Theater- Pull me Under (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
4:11 pm	HAPPY EASTER! Holy crap I've had waaaaay to much chocolate today. As an easter treat for you people I'm going to present you with the five stages of chocolate addiction and effect 1. Ecstasy: There's nothing like Easter candy. Chocolate, Peeps, Robin's Eggs etc. It makes you feel sooo good. At least for now it does 2. Denial: You tell yourself that one more tiny choco-egg won't hurt you. Well you're wrong. Oh so terribly wrong. It's going to downhill from here 3. Hyperactivity: This is the part where you eat so much chocolate that you're acting like a drunken goon when you are in fact sober. At least where alcohol is concerned. Excesive giggling, stupid corny jokes and just plain idiocy take place during this stage 4. Withdrawl: You become very very hostile and attack anyone that has chocolate. You're blinded by your addiction. Your family and friends have probably by this point hidden your chocolate for their saftey and your own. By now there isn't much differnce between losing your temper and killing someone 5. Crash'n Burn: Your sugar high ends suddenly and you crash like a ton of bricks. Sometimes in extreme cases you'll colapse right there and sleep for a good two to three days So there you have it! Happy Easter everyone! And eat with caution Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Metallica- Fade to Black (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 24th, 2005
10:23 pm	God I feel so alone today. The only good that came out of it is that I learned a big chunk of Fade to Black. When my heart is empty I have a lot more passion and drive to play music. Sometimes I think it's the only thing that can stop that ache. It blurrs the lines. I love that Anyways.. I really need to cheer up heh heh Current Mood: empty Current Music: Corrosion of Conformity- Wishbone (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
9:26 pm	You are Sally, the Rag doll. Beautiful, curious and in love. You enjoy picking dead flowers, making your own clothing and cooking. But you hate being under lock and key.. and you long for new excitement.. if breaking rules is the only way to get it, then so be it. Which Nightmare Before Christmas Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
2:24 pm	SAVE BEATLLICA! I should have posted this a long tim ago but at least I finally remembered Please sign this petition and bring Beatallica back from the dead! http://www.petitiononline.com/p1gp0g/petition.html Beatllica, if you don't know, is a really cool parody band that mixes Metallica and The Beatles. Their music WAS free and just for fun but apparently the fucked up corperate big shots weren't laughing. They totally didn't deserve what Sony served out Current Mood: devious (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 17th, 2005
2:26 pm	So I made myself a new layout. Isn't it purdy? It took me a whole ten minutes to do Current Mood: bitchy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
12:27 pm	Ok so... I just got an Ebay account last night and I've been going nuts blowing all my funds on really cool rare shit. I was just about to buy a bunch of So What issues but then my mom came and saw what I was doing and restrained me until the auction was over. I put up a good fight but lost in the end LOL. So now I've taken a vow to only buy stuff sparingly... Well that's what I said anyways heh heh Current Mood: Going Ebay nutso Current Music: Diamond Head- The Prince (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
11:51 am	Why is it every time I try and make one little comment on something I think is wrong, my friends turn on me and make it seem like I was insulting them. Make me feel like a nasty rat why dont ya! I never meant for it to go that way I should have just kept my mouth shut and turned away. Current Mood: stupid (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
3:53 pm	I wonder if anyone actually reads the stuff I post ^-^; Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Metallica- Some Kind of Monster (3 Comments |Comment on this)
11:55 am	Well I lost my voice this morning. I'd imagine that's not good. Yep Burning + swelling + not being able to talk= Bad Current Mood: tired Current Music: Metallica- -Human (Comment on this)
Friday, February 4th, 2005
1:19 pm	Oh yeah! I scored the best babysitting job ever! Alumni weekend at some fancy artsy fartsy school, eight kids + 40$ an hour= Lotsa money! Course I won't be doing it alone (thank God!) but I still get the 40$ an hour! Yay! Current Mood: Sick as a dog (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
12:07 pm	Y'know? It's funny how when you're at home and sick and have nothing important to do whatsoever that you find yourself not doing what you always say you will when you have free time but really weird stuff. I spent this morning eating cookies, lying on the couch and watching The Price Is Right. Y'know what else is odd? That I've been getting sick so much lately. Usually I can go two or three years without catching a cold or throwing up but in just the past month I've been sick like three times.. Hmm Current Mood: artistic Current Music: Motorhead- Ace of Spades (Comment on this)
Monday, January 31st, 2005
3:19 pm	Woot! I got to keep my phone! Yay! *ahem* Y'know what really sucks? They closed my favorite store at the mall. Brighter Daze is no more! *sob* All the really cool sharpie sniffing hippies/metal heads are gone too! What is this world coming to!? Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Motorhead- Emergency (Comment on this)
Friday, January 28th, 2005
2:06 pm	Ok sooo.... What did I do today. I got up really early so I could go out and get my new book I wanted. This Monster Lives... Then I went and picked up my new guitar case that's really freakin heavy and that's with nothing in it. And then I signed up for a new cell service plan and it doesn't work so I have to cancel it and that sucks cause the phone has A VIDEO AND PICTURE THINGY AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH! And I'm going to Teresa's tonight. I'll bring my axe and my kick ass little Marshall amp. That will be fun Current Mood: blah Current Music: Me playing the Project Nemesis riff (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
12:34 pm	My new years resoluton. A bit late I know but I hadn't chosen one up until now. Well I did but I do "I'll exercise more" every year.Don't we all? So goal for this year is *can I have a drumroll Lars?* In the year 2005 I resolve to: Smoke canadian weed. Get your resolution here. </p> Current Mood: quixotic (Comment on this)
10:37 am	hrmm Well today's SKOM day! After wating to se it since July 9th I'm finally going to own it! Yay! I'm so happy Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Monday, January 24th, 2005
9:37 pm	Grrrr I gotta go to the fucking doctors tomarrow. I hate getting a physical more than anything in the world! I'd rather do anything ANYTHING (well almost) than go to the doctors. I don't like stripping down in front of total fucking strangers and getting poked and proded and asked emabarssing questions like if I've been sexual active or if I'm regular or if my tits have been hurting me. Then you have to get shots and all that shit. NO! FUCK OFF OK?!?!! GO FUCK YOURSELF! Well I avoided for five years I guess I knew they'd find out eventually. I feel like I'm going to spew I'm so nervous x_x Well on the bright side SKOM is coming tomarrow so that leaves me something to look forward to :) Current Mood: anxious Current Music: The Misfits- Green Hell (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
1:17 pm	Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn Your Name You Are A: Geek Your Favorite Band/Song Birthday Massacre - Over You Like To Read: Horror books You Firmly Believe In: Free love Everyone Thinks You Are: A sleazy prostitute You Were Conceived: Next to a fireplace You Will Marry: Ghandi Quiz created with MemeGen! Well that's pretty much not true LOL. Except for the horror book thing. I love horror books Current Mood: cold Current Music: Nirvana- Smells Like Teen Spirit (Comment on this)